Embracing Life

A SHARING FROM EIVOR JOHANSSON OF NEW YORK

The Life Embrace Essence has acted as a Life Savoir for me. While using it everything felt possible. I got my original family back. The essence was very specific in helping me to go deep into my heart and see the difference between what belonged to my life and what belonged to my mother’s life.

Thanks Celine you for all that you are. Miracles do happen. I know because they happened to me.

I was born and raised in Sweden 54 years ago. We were three girls and one boy, mom and dad. My parents both worked in a mental institution when we grew up. At the age of 27 I moved to New York. I had always known that New York was my home.

My mother was very strong willed, while my dad was more on the softer, quieter side.

My mom worked full time. She made all our clothes, picked berries and fruits and made marmalade and jam. My dad also worked full time and helped with all house hold chores.

Both our parents came from families where communication wasn’t a part of daily life. And that’s where my story begins.

My mom was sexually violated at a very early age and selected not to tell anybody and specially not us children till we were much older. My dad passed over 23 years ago full of cancer.

Unbeknown and unwillingly my mom transferred her childhood turmoil to us while we were growing up. Results were devastating to all of us leading to major disillusioned lives with alcoholism, anorexia, bulimia, sexual and financial promiscuity and many more self destructive behaviors.

I totally lost contact with all my siblings for more than 17 years. As mom grew older and was unable to visit me in New York I decided to go back to my home town in Sweden.  Two months before arriving I called my younger sister and asked her if we could talk and she agreed. So much came up and we spoke several times before I arrived. I wrote an email to my older sister a week before coming and we agreed to meet when I got there. Calling my brother he told me he was staying at his home in Sicily, Italy for the next two months and couldn’t see me.

I arrived in Vanersborg, Sweden on Thanksgiving 2009. My younger sister and mom greeted me. It was so great to see them both. We cried and hugged each other. Since I wasn’t going to stay more than three nights we made sure we organized our time carefully.

My older sister and I went to see each other at a cafe nearby where she lives. We hugged and cried. After one hour, she suggested we go home to her and continued speaking for the next 3 to 5 hours about past, present and future. We both made a commitment to each other that we no longer be separated from each others lives and made plans for all three of us sisters to see each other the next day for dinner at her house. Mom selected not to be with us.

After dinner we started turning everything upside down from our past and arrived at one single point. Love was Life’s Essence. We always loved each other so deeply but moms’ own past played a major role in how she successfully separated us all from each other and how she played such different roles to all of us. We had no clue who she was or who we were to each other. Our mutual decision was there would be no more separations between us siblings. We pulled out a chair for our invisible brother and I told them that I was going to tell him everything we spoke about.

I left after three nights and four days with enormous joy in my heart. I got my Life (essence) back. I never thought that this was possible. I never thought that I would be able to have our original family back and be able to love each other so much. We continued to call and email each other long after I came home. We couldn’t tell each other enough how much we loved and love each other and that it was not our fault that childhood and long into adulthood had become so tragic.

One week before Christmas I went to Cancun, Mexico by myself, on vacation. It was so relaxing and great and on Christmas Eve I called all my siblings. I had gotten a strong feeling to ask my younger sister to contact our brother since they had not spoken in 15 years. He used to beat her when they where younger so I didn’t know if she wanted to. With help from us sisters she had already forgiven him and had no problem doing that. She sent a message and he called her back in 2 seconds. They spoke for about 10 minutes and decided to see each other when he got back to Sweden in mid January.

Thanks for the beautiful Life Embrace Essence! Using it has provided an incredible opportunity to understand how life works and to be able to understand and feel what we must learn. No matter what happens there is only one thing that remains. Love or fear!

We all chose Love, life’s essence, and we can’t wait to see each other this summer when I go back.

Mom, thank you for all that you are. Dad we love you. You have been and are our greatest teachers. We love you so much and we all trust that through us you also will be able to find your way back home to your hearts and that you are not afraid to show yourselves and us how much you really love us. We know that you do.

Thank you Celine for this opportunity to share my heart and life’s essence with you.

Eivor